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Monday, April 28, 2014

Sip and See

An important even happened on the 26th.  We were finally able to have Nic's Sip and See.  For those of you that are unfamiliar, a Sip and See is a party for the adults of the new parents, a time to come have food, drinks and see Nicolette.  They tend to be done about a month after birth, but since Nic spent that time in and out of the hospital, we thought it was best to wait.
We themed the party after the Dr. Seuss book Oh the Places You'll go! switch seemed fitting given everything she had been through and the long road ahead.  Many, many guest came to see this amazing baby.  Here is what Nic thought of the event.

I wish I'd have taken more pictures, but I was so happy to finally be around a lot of people again, I really forgot.  I can assure you, there was a TON of food and some delicious drinks!  Why such a big 6 month party?  We decided Nic's one year birthday was  going to be just for us to take a special trip to Kansas City.  Also, I WILL be the mom that throw HUGE parties for Nic during the first couple years of her life.  One, she wasn't supposed to be here.  That alone seems worth celebrating.  Two, I know NIc will struggle.  I know she if different, and my husband and I are well aware that there may be a day in which her same-aged peers stops coming to her parties.  That day will hurt.  I want us all to have these moments to look back on before we move in taking trips or special outings on Nic's special day.


All decorations were in theme with the book.  Cevin hung all the parachutes I made out of decorative bird's nests from the craft store and paper lanterns.



I cannot believe I missed the food and dessert table.  I was too busy eating!  Oh well!
We also had people write in this book.  We will continue to write in it every year.  I don't know if Nic will ever appreciate such a gift, but I know it will bring mom and dad back happy memories.  In the meantime, Nic smiles when I read it to her, and that's good enough for me.




Thursday, April 17, 2014

Nic starts to laugh

It's official, we have giggles!

Gearing up for Easter....and learning some new skills

Nic has been working really hard at home in her therapy sessions and with mom.  We have mainly been working on range of motion for muscles, sitting up, maintaining focus on objects and the ominous tummy time.  Nic has been a trooper, while mom needs to work on letting Nic struggle.  Nic cries a lot during therapy now, and the sore muscles at the end of the day have been concerning.  No one in the world wants to watch their child struggle, and I view this as preparation (for lack of a better term) for the future.

Vision intervention (designed by mom and past coworkers) seems the most promising.  Nic recently had a functional vision assessment to give us an idea of what she is or is not using when it comes to vision.  The results are as follows:

VISUAL PROCESSING BEHAVIORS

The CVI Range developed by Dr. Christine Roman was used to assess visual processing issues due to the neurological diagnoses.    The scale ranges from 0-10 with 0 representing no visual responses and 10 representing resolution of lower level visual processing issues.  Higher level visual processing issues can persist if lower level issues are resolved.  Nicolette’s combined score was 3.25 placing her in Phase I which pertains to building more sustained looking behavior.  She is beginning to emerge into Phase II which starts to add function and meaning to vision.  The unstable status of the hydrocephalus could cause some regression on the scale but it generally expected that improvement on the scale will be realized due to the plasticity of the infant brain.  The visual processing behaviors broke down as follows:
·      Color:  Mother reported that red might be a favorite color.  Nicolette did best when targets consisted of 1-3 bright colors.  (Range 3-4; 0.25)
·      Movement:  Movement cues and reflective properties were instrumental in eliciting visual attention.  (Range 3-6; 0.375)
·      Latency:  A “slowness to visually respond” was present but slightly decreased as the session wore on.  (Range 3-4; 0.25)
·      Visual Fields:  The left field shortly left of midline was preferred.  Nicolette had great difficulties using all outer peripheral fields due to the head control issues and possible cataract interference.  Brain damage to specific fields could also be a possibility.  (Range 3-4; 0.25)
·      Complexity:  The environment needed to be controlled for all sensory input so that Nicolette would visually attend.  She preferred to use her sense of hearing over vision and became distracted when she heard another child crying in the hall.  Visual complexity of the target and background needed to be simplified.  (Range 3-4; 0.25)
·      Light Gazing:  Gazing toward lighted targets could be re-directed to non-lighted targets but responses were better to lighted targets.  (Range 3-4; 0.25)
·      Distance Viewing:  Purposeful visual responses to objects were limited to near space.  (Range 3-4; 0.25)
·      Visual Reflexive Responses:  The blink reflex was sluggish and the threat blink response could not be elicited.  (Range 3-4; 0.25) 
·      Visual Novelty:  Nicolette briefly viewed the new targets presented during the evaluation as long as they complied with complexity requirements.  (Range 3-4; 0.25)
·      Visual Motor:  Reaching attempts were not visually directed and look and touch occurred as separate events.  (Range 3-4; 0.25)


From this information, I then gathered baseline data on Nic's attending of color.  Nic is "looking" at the colors red, yellow, orange, and blue.  Blue needs a black contrast but she seems to love it.  Focusing times averaged are as follows:


  • Red-Most preferred as expected with CVI-8.25 seconds
  • Yellow-6 seconds
  • Orange 5.25 Seconds
  • Blue-3.5 Seconds






It is important to note that when testing I use a simple piece of paper or large toy that is a solid color and add a black background if needed.  I just added these photos because we also play, read books everyday, and well, she is SOOOOO cute!

These times give us a baseline to build off of to see if intervention is being successful.  I'm also currently awaiting the arrival of a copy of 

Roman-Lantzy, C. (2007). Cortical Visual Impairment: An approach to assessment and intervention. New York, NY, USA: AFB Press.

as Roman-Lantzy developed the scale of functional use of vision used in her assessment.  Her intervention in the meantime is trying to implement the following ideas (summarized by Pam Shanks, Primary Educator, Inclusion Specialist at Raintree Montessori School in Lawrence, KS):    

1.  Color and movement elicit looking:  Again what R-L would predict.  If she is not looking, moving the item a bit might help.  When she does fixate, allow her to look as long as she can.  Watch for her to "stop" looking.  You may have to keep the object moving to help her maintain gaze which frankly feels wrong at first.  You will want to stop making the object move when she looks.  Hopefully you will begin to see her length of looking grow and/or her ability to fixate, track etc improve. 

2.  Complexity: Invest in a black shirt or two and or a black apron.  That way you will always have an easy black background for presentation.  As you buy toys and items for her to use, think plain and one color (SO HARD TO FIND!!!!) and for now red (her favorite likely because it is easier for her see) or yellow.  See example below of ways to use red.  Red metallic curling ribbon bow would give movement (metallic reflectivity and actual movement) plus use red,  Add a black background to reduce complexity and a desk lamp (see below) for a spotlight and you have a great toy to elicit look and reach.

3. Spotlight vs. light table:  A spotlight (think adjustable desk lamp) can be very useful too.  Dimming the light and focusing the desk lamp on the visual target can elicit a look as well.  In fact, having a lamps as an alternative to overhead lighting in each room is a good idea.  Dim is good.  
Always put a hat or sunglasses when going outside. STILL WORKING ON THIS ONE as her helmet limits her ability to wear hats and sunglasses.


I will chart and post updates (hopefully) biweekly.

Currently, Nic is tolerating five minutes of tummy time per session at a rate of three sessions per day.  This is the hardest to work on, because she literally cries to the point of throwing up.  However, there are very few other ways to gear up her muscles to maintain head control.... And honestly, what a head she will have to control (HC 57 CM).  We take comfort in the fact that there is a notable difference in how much we (mom, dad, and therapists) have to "help" her with her head when sitting up to play with stuff.  This is incredibly hard for Nic.  There is generally what the next hour looks like after we work on this.

 But we try; we try everyday because that's our job as parents.  And we love her, and sometimes that means making our child push harder, work longer, and letting her cry a little.  Because, once she develops these skills, it will feel like winning the lottery, and all the sore muscles, all the crying and all the parental heartache will be worth it.








Dad is the best at sitting up time.  She loves playing games with him while working on trunk control.


 Tough work over here!

Also, I just wanted to note, that she confirm and monitor intervention with both of her PTs and her Pediatrician to make sure we are not cross in the line between hard work and hurting her. 

Thursday, April 10, 2014

Mom spends a birthday at Children's Mercy, and it was all worth it....


There are times as a parent of a child with special needs, that you avoid testing or assessments.  Maybe you think it isn't needed, maybe you think the doctor was wrong, or maybe-like me-you're just scared.  Maybe you can take multiple diagnoses like Hydro, CVI, PMG, etc. but maybe there is one that just brings you to your knees (literally).  For me, that dx was if Nic was totally blind.  In the NICU, we had a rather taunting doctor that repeatedly insisted we needed to “understand” that Nic was deaf-blind, that she brain couldn't possibly support the function of either sense.  This doctor followed us around so we "could fully understand the implications of Nicolette's conditions".  He even laughed at me when I read books to Nic in the NICU.

It wasn't that we wouldn't love Nic is she was deaf-blind.  It wasn't that we wouldn't try to support her if she was deaf-blind.  It was that I was terrified that I wouldn't have what it took to be a good mother a child with those impairments.  Could I learn sign language and other techniques fast enough?  Could I brush off the looks, the comments, the teasing fully enough?  Could I accept and table my own grief completely enough?

Deaf I could handle.  My SPED background told me the assessment timing of her ABR (just three days after surgery -WTH?!!!) just less than ideal and that maybe, just maybe enough to skew those severely impaired results.  We retested Nicolette's hearing in January.  It came back normal.  He husband nailed it when he said, "I never taught I'd see the day where 'normal' felt like winning the lottery".  He was right; that was exactly how it felt.

The second dx ate at me.  There were days Nic seemed to tract objects.  She looked at everyone's face when being held.  She didn't return smiles from people 3 feet away from her, but I couldn't see at that distance without my contacts.  Was she like me?  Tuesday, 4/7, I finally allowed Nic to be evaluated.... I finally "sucked it up" and realized that my fears shouldn't hinder our daughter's therapy.  If she was blind, then we needed to figure out what to do ASAP.  The world wasn't going to change for her; we have to prepare her for the world.



I'll never forget the fear inside me at her functional vision assessment.  It was like I cried inside myself for an entire hour.  And then it happened.... "I'm not one to talk about other medical professionals, but whoever told you she was blind should rework their assessment techniques."  My daughter does have CVR.  She does have a limited field of vision.  She will need help to learn to compensate for those impairments.  BUT SHE HAS VISION.



I'm learning this road is a long, long uphill route.  One with mislabeled signs, bad maps and scary detours, but now and again... just when you feel like totally losing it... you stumble across the best of views.  You learn how to become thankful for things you never realized were gifts.